It doesn’t even seem real…. I haven’t written anything here for over 2 months! My poor deserted blog! =P
Well, perhaps I have a reason, or some might call it an excuse. I am usually very annoyed by the word excuse… But this one I’m not ashamed of a bit! =)
For the last over a month, I have been living one of my dreams! I have been CANVASSING!
It was AMAZING!
Better than I could have ever imagined….
Most of my close friends and family know very well that I had dreamed of Canvassing…. For some time I kept it in the silence of my own heart, but I soon couldn’t keep the dream to myself anymore, everyone I talked to knew about it! And as I learned to wait on God for the time He would make the dream a reality, (even though it was very, very hard to wait) I learned that it had strengthened me for those wonderful 20 some, days of Canvassing.
It was a Thursday, my first day, I sat in the van going over and over my canvass, trying to make those words stick in my mind in an organized fashion…. I’ve never been the best at memorizing. It was torture for me to sit there in the stuffy van, repeating over and over my stumbled canvass to one of my leaders…. And watching the others out there working! I think David could see my silent frustration, and decided to let me shadow one of the Canvassers. I was so happy at his decision!!
So out of the van I scrambled, with my wrinkled Canvass in hand, promising to work on it as I walked.
I tagged along with Esther, hearing her say the Canvass over and over, watching the way she worked, it was amazing! But there was one thing that scared me… like big time! We were working businesses, like everything from restaurants, to Dollar stores, to big banks, hair salons, along with the parking lots. I hid behind her most of the time… or at least I tried to…
By the time lunch time came around, everyone had gathered back in the van, and everyone started eating, I realized, “Oh, I guess I was supposed to bring a lunch!” Nobody told me I was supposed to pack a lunch! Lol
David seeing my predicament gave me his little lunch box filled with rice and curry, and said “Here, eat this!” I was so embarrassed! I didn’t want to take it, but finally gave in after a little argument! He drove to taco bell and ordered some lunch there for himself, and then joined us at the table. After I was done with my donated lunch, I rushed to use the restroom, and had a little talk with God….
“Why am I here God?! I can NEVER canvass those businesses on my own, they scare me to death and I‘m not even the one talking! I have just stumbled all day… I can’t memorize my Canvass, and I didn’t even know I needed to pack a lunch, and ate someone else’s! I don’t understand all this God, but I know one thing, you are going to have to help me through this long Month, ‘cause I truly don’t know how I’m gonna make it!”
Oh the memories of that first day! =)
The next day, Friday, I was canvassing on my own! No it wasn’t businesses yet, but it was apartments…. It was a rainy, cold, windy day. I slopped through puddles with my very un-waterproof 9 dollar shoes, that were fast filling with water…
But the Lord put a song in my heart, and a smile on my face!
I was working with Kayla that day who was also Canvassing for the first time, and God gave me the strength to have a cheerful spirit, and so we were able to encourage each other! I remember saying as we stood under a tree waiting for pick-up, “We just need to learn to dance in the rain! (and the puddles too)”
I wish I didn’t have to worry about writing long blog posts, as I would tell you about the lady who had just been in a car accident, who ended up buying the “Peace above the storm”. Or of the parents of an autistic son, who didn’t have the money for anything, (they lived in a very poor neighborhood) but were almost brought to tears when I gave them “My friend Jesus”. Or of the lady who poured out her life story of pain at her door, and how tears streamed down her face when I prayed with her and gave her a “Happiness Digest” (Steps to Christ) Or of the Mother and daughter who were just trying to figure out how they were going to pay rent for the tiny little apartment they called home, and how they invited me in out of the cold and rain, (unlike their more wealthy neighbors had done) how they gave me a pair of old leather gloves when they had felt how cold my hands were when I grasped theirs to pray. How their hearts overflowed with thankfulness when I handed them a “Peace above the storm”. Or of the little girl who wanted a “My friend Jesus” but her Mommy had no money… and to see her dance about with joy when I gave it to her! Or of the day I sold nothing before lunch, and how I cried between doors, swallowed hard and wiped my tears at the door and somehow blurted out my canvass….. But then how a few doors later I met a sweet 93 year old lady, and how she longed to be out in the spring sunshine like me… I handed her the flowers I had stooped to pick when I was getting over my tears. I had stuck them in my bag for a reason, only God knew about! She just sat and stared at them, with a twinkle in her eyes… I talked to her all about the joy of Heaven… how she would see the little boy of hers there again that had died when just a baby. We made a commitment to meet in heaven, her and I. And I don’t plan on disappointing her! When I walked out of that door, I skipped down the sidewalk with joy! I hadn't had a better day!
Oh I could go on and on! Canvassing was just so amazing! There is nothing quite like being so weak that you plead for strength from on high, and then stand back to watch Him work Miracle after Miracle!
By the way, I just wanted to say to you….
If you are waiting on God for a dream to be fulfilled in your life… and it seems impossible, or you feel like it will never happen….
Just keep waiting!
You will be happy you did in the end!
This became one of my top favorite verses as I was Canvassing, and it still remains as one of them…
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater: So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.” Isaiah 55: 9-11
I don’t know about you, but to me, that is just a beautiful promise!
And His promises will never fail!
As I wonder what His plans are for me next, I am hanging on this promise, knowing that His thoughts are higher than mine, His ways are more beautiful than I could ever imagine, His word shall not return unto Him void, but shall accomplish that which He pleases!
And as I wait for His all knowing, perfect plan, He’s strengthening me for the days ahead…
And I hope Canvassing is a part of His plans!
(But I know I’ll love whatever He has in store! ;)
(With the Publishing Director on the right)
Worship with the Alabama Conference leaders.
The all laid hands on us, and prayed. It was powerful!